Today when I got up and I was in a really good mood. Then I stayed in a great mood all day. It's been awesome. I went to an alumni baseball game that Stephen and Chris played in and Hannah was on the bleachers with us too. It was sunny and warm outside- perfect day for a baseball game. Then we all went to lunch, which was also great. My sister came home while I was gone so I got to see her too. So yea good day. I hope I have more days like this. 

current mood: cheerful

I'm giving up getting really frustrated/ mad/ upset/ angry with people for lent. Today was my first day. At midnight I was arguing with Bryan about a joke he made which lead to me calling him crass and cheap. So it started out pretty rough. It built up from there. I was full of rage by lunchtime. Costco Wednesdays made me feel better and I had much less rage then. However on the way back to school a car behind me was driving sooo awfully and then I was mad again. I let them pass me and it was better. Then some girls in my econ class were like not rude really, but just bugging me talking about Valentines Day before our test. They were going over material and they had it all wrong... so wrong. I was going to correct them before the test, but then I didn't. That might have been a little mean. On the other hand, it was just staying out of things that are not my business. I'm canceling that one out. Then when I got home I was pretty mad at someone and I almost spoke up, but strangely enough I let it go. I've been at peace with it for like an hour now, so that's a huge improvement and I am hopeful about tomorrow.

current mood: grateful

Yesterday I went to Berkeley twice, once for Fentons and once for fondue with my sister. Both were good. Then I watched the Hills with Ben and Michelle. I would say I was too excited to watch the Hills and then I was also just really happy once I saw it. I'm all for liking tv shows, but I can't believe I like this show so much. Ben and Michelle were happy about it too, so that made me glad. Then I was going to go to sleep at like 11 because I had school this morning, but instead of 11 it was more like 3 and then I woke up at like 7. Wonderful. I wasn't even tired though once I got going. Class was good, no complaints. Then I got to get school supplies! I really love office supply stores. I think they stopped making the one type of pencil that I like, but then I found a close substitute. However, better news... they still had the pencils at target, so I stocked up on them. I'm not a fan of changing stuff once I have found something I like and I am comfortable with. This pencil has this twist up eraser, so you never run out of eraser. I'm very particular. I was going to swim tonight, but well I'm not. I still kinda need to mail in the stuff for it. I really am particular.

current mood: tired

I understand that I haven't updated this in forever, so I'm going to attempt an update right now.

I've been having a hard time dealing with injustice lately. It's just so unfair! I know that's the definition of it, but I don't understand why life isn't fair all the time. I'm giving life one year to balance out and if I don't see an improvement in people getting what they deserve or consequences logically following actions then I don't even know what I will do. It just better balance out. I have faith that life balances out and works out, but my faith is limited and skeptical and I'm not sure that's really faith then. I know it's not anyone's fault that life isn't fair, but I certainly have found it easy to blame people who don't get what they deserve, which isn't fair on my part. So then I was thinking wow I'm judgmental and I nag people a lot to change, even when I like them how they are. I'm going to try to stop doing that. If everyone did what I want then it would get boring and how would I learn anything from other people?

Could more people go to Europe this year? It feels like everyone is going this year and I want to go too, so I get jealous, but then I also don't really want to go right this moment, maybe in a few years. Either way I feel left out when people talk about it even if the timing for me is poor to go now. That's actually not on my mind too often, but just a thought. Also Macys has really poor customer service and it is frustrating me right now.

So break was nice, but fairly stressful even though I know life is gonna get way more stressful when school starts again or maybe not... who knows. I swam this week for the first time in like 4 years. I was so sore after, for like 3 days. I'm gonna join masters cuz I should try to be healthy since I have no excuse not too be healthy. Yea so I was sore and tired and that put me in a bad mood for a good 3 days. I felt mean, but just everyone and everything was bothering me and didn't feel like dealing with it. That has passed, but it was just strange cuz I haven't ever been in a bad mood for that long at once. I would like to know what triggered it, but I can't think of any one incidence. I guess that's about it... scattered but it.

current mood: okay

It's finals week.  I'm glad this semester is almost over.  I can't wait for break. 

I always like when you ask someone "how's it going?" and they say "oh it's going..." because I always think yea....it is going, well said. It's pretty much really cold here. Everyone is talking about how it's like extra cold this week, but I feel this cold every winter so I don't know what they are talking about. Tonight a total stranger said to me "it's freezing" and I said "seriously". Then I felt like I was one of the girl doctors on grey's anatomy, which is not really the kind of girl that I want imitate. Pretty much trying to finish up my third round of college applications tonight so I can go to Chico tomorrow. Dean was complaining about how he has to apply to law school soon because he feels like he just applied to college. Well boohoo I haven't even gone to real college yet so there. That doesn't really prove anything, but it's the truth. I found all my old college stuff a few hours ago when I was looking for application materials. Pretty weird. I had kinda forgot the other times I did this until I saw all the envelopes and UC letterhead and brochures. Like I said, it made me feel weird. I guess that's about all I have to say besides talking about how much I love Christmas. I do, I love Christmas and Christmas time. Just looking forward to finishing the next few weeks so I have enjoy winter break.

current mood: anxious